“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.” – Epicurus
I’ve been back home in Ghana for a little over a year now. 1 year, 3 days if you’re counting. This is officially the longest I’ve been home since I moved away for college almost 12 years ago. The year certainly flew by. Although a lot has happened, some days it doesn’t feel like much has changed. As the days drew closer and I realized that I’ve been back for year, I knew I wanted to write about it, but I’ve been struggling to put into words how I feel about it. I think I still have mixed feelings about being home. Those of you who have been following my journey home know that my coming home was meant to be temporary while my work visa issues got sorted out. Then it didn’t work out, so I had to switch gears. And after months of job hunting and getting rejection letters, I finally got a really good position just before the year 2017 ended. The end, right? I got a great job, I finally have some sense of stability in my life so what’s my problem? I really wish I had the answer to that question. I’m still trying to figure it out. I just don’t feel settled, it’s as though there’s still some missing piece of the puzzle that keeps eluding me. I guess this is why it’s important to find contentment wherever you’re at. Your happiness shouldn’t be tied to the next thing – job, relationship, vacation etc. For me it’s a constant process, I don’t think it’ll just happen. It needs to be a daily choice, to focus on what I do have, my blessings so to speak, instead of what I think I need to be happy. There are still quite a few things I need to figure out from getting my stuff that’s still in the US to the next job opportunity (since the one I currently have is a temporary contract) but I’m going to try and take things one day at a time (although the planner in me is struggling lol). And remember that my goals for the year are to make memories and celebrate the little moments and find joy even in the mundane.
To wrap up this post, here’s a quick look at everything that’s happened in the last year, the important ones anyway:
- I came home for 6 weeks but that’s turned into a year plus
- I started this blog (I haven’t been as consistent in posting like I promised but… baby steps 😊)
- I made some amazing new friends and reconnected with old ones
- I get to spend time with my family
- I got a year older and somewhat wiser
- I got a job
Although this year at home hasn’t been all rosy (just read my posts), I’ve also learned a lot about myself and life in general. So, here’s to the next year bringing with it pleasant surprises, career advancement, inspiration and drive to work towards our goals and lots of joy, love and laughter.